#27 Go visit a psychic and get my cards read

In March, I took a mini Spring Break vacay to South Beach with one of my fabulous girlfriends "She na na na".  Her real name is Naomi, and she's actually a super serious lawyer, but in her downtime, she's crazy and AMAY-ZING, which translates to tons of fun. 

Anyway, while in South Beach, we walked past a store that advertised Tarot Card reading, walked in to get a quote and promptly walked out after hearing the price. We decided to go speak to a bartender, which was equally therapeutic, and for WAY less.

But still.  The idea of getting my cards read was intriguing. Hence #27, getting my cards read.  And, to make it even better, I found a deal on pulsdjfk.com for a 60 minute Tarot Card and Psychic Reading, and for 60% off.  Can't argue with a coupon!

So, I met with the lovely Veronica on a Tuesday afternoon after work. I tried to look like a fashionable 30 year old (#23), and Veronica commented that I did look "successful", so yay, maybe it's actually working! Back to the story: Here's how getting my cards read unfolded:

1. I arrive.
2. I go in to a private room.  Said room is not hung with drapes, no crystal ball, no head scarf.  Just a plain room with a plain ole desk and chairs, a normal looking girl, and a deck of cards.
3. Veronica and I greet each other, shake hands, say hi, how you doing, nice to meet you, etc.
4. We sit down at previously mentioned desk.
5. She asks me to shuffle the cards.  I shuffle twice, then cut once.
6. She starts picking cards from the top of the pile.  She lays out the cards, one by one, and the first word she says after looking at the cards is...

...self sabotage.  She sees the look on my face and immediately blurts out that she's shocked to see the self doubt in the cards, because I have such a good aura, gorgeous hair, beautiful blue eyes (my confidence is starting to go back up slightly), sees that I'm successful, but... I have a lot of self defeating thoughts. I could be more. I have a fear that's holding me back, an apprehension to break free, and I am "safe" where I am.  Later on, she tells me she saw that because of all the cards with knives/swords...

So... that pretty much knocked me on my booty.  See, I went in to this reading thinking it would be a fun experience, but was definitely not planning on taking it seriously.  I'm still not sure I will be, but when the first word she says to me is "self sabotage", my first thought was "Have you been reading the diaries that I have not been writing?!?!"  When I told my sister about it, she also said "Wow", twice.  So the fact that this lovely stranger hit the f'ing nail on the head on the freaking first word?!?!  Wow is an understatement.


So now I'm taking this seriously.  After the initial reading, we reshuffle the cards, and start to delve in to specific topics based on my questions.  Of course, we all want to know about career and love, so I asked those first.  From a career standpoint, she says I need to explore being an entrepreneur in a creative field, as my current job is "suppressing my spirit"... She sees me doing something creative, something with movement, something kinda like Martha Stewart.  She told me that I'm too responsible and need to play more, be more "ludique", which is a Spanish word that means "fun".  She encouraged me to take classes, so that I can be inspired by doing things, such as cooking, dancing, painting, writing...

She then tells me she sees my career having something to do with children and kids. I start to look uncomfortable (again) and she reminds me to take this all with a grain of salt... seeing kids does not necessarily mean that it's a direct tie - it could be anything related to kids, maybe making toys or spring break.  But, she does think I'll have kids, maybe 2-3.  WTF.

The following card appeared in 3 of the 4 shuffles... the "ten of pentacles", which Veronica tells me relates to family... which is why she thinks all this "kids" stuff.

Next, she finally gives me some GOOD news!  She tells me "Don't ever worry about money.  You will always have money."  Finally! I'm definitely believing this part of the reading, fo sho. 

Then, we focus on LOVE.  She sees love creeping in with my new career... he's connected somehow. He's going to be the love of my life, the man of my dreams, and she sees him very soon in the future - as in 3-6 months.  But only if I explore new career opportunities.  She reiterates that I shouldn't quit tomorrow, but need to be more "ludique".

We do a few more shuffles over the rest of our hour together, and we continue to hit the same themes... me striking out on my own, how I need to have no fear, more details on Mr. Right, including that he'll be better than any past love... and that he'll really LOVE me.  She thinks we'll get engaged very quickly, and cautioned me to use protection HAHAHA.

She leaves me with a few last gems:

• My future life "looks so juicy!"  Push yourself!
• I have a lot of fantasies. Stop dreaming. Start doing.
• Don't "waste your talent".

So what do you think?  Do you think I should believe Veronica? Are you surprised about my self-defeating tendencies?  Do you know who my "Mr. Right" is?  Do you have any idea what I'm going to invent, or what my next career move is or should be?  Or do you think it's all a bunch of crock?  I welcome your thoughts... =)